Items by 06mickey

The Mimi Project

• Its funny

  Posted: March 12, 2010, 6:09 pm by 06mickey

  …or is it weird That I sometimes think there are several of me [I know just how wrong and impossible that statement just sounded] There’s the overly emotional me who is always making decisions for me , like if I’m going to publish this post or not, and the logical, cold, unfeeling me. There’s the me who will [...]

• Its that time again…

  Posted: March 9, 2010, 5:49 pm by 06mickey

  …my birthday I don’t know what it is about this time of the year but it always brings this cloud over my head. I mean it’s supposed to a happy time right? But somehow each year there’s this sadness and a lowness that I can’t really understand or explain. Maybe Its the expectation that something is supposed to [...]

• My interesting life

  Posted: January 30, 2010, 3:08 pm by 06mickey

  Since moving back home and feeling like a total failure all this while, I thought that there’d be nothing of interest going on in my life. Well apart from the fact that I’m trying to start my business, have my parents breathing down my throat every 5 seconds and enjoying the fact that I don’t have [...]

• I’m hoping…

  Posted: December 14, 2009, 4:37 pm by 06mickey

  …that this year will end well and all its bad ‘luck’ will go with it. If there’s been a year that has been hard on me, its 2009. If you don’t believe me, there’s a whole blog for you to read. I’m not looking for sympathy though. On the contrary, I’m glad that I have gone [...]

• Everything

  Posted: December 8, 2009, 2:59 pm by 06mickey

  Apart from the fear of heights and public speaking, I think the fear of failure or of not achieving one’s dreams ranks as one of the top fears. It’s number one on my list But what happens when you fail? At everything? What happens when every single thing you touch turns to dust? I’ll tell you what happens… When [...]

• Still here

  Posted: November 27, 2009, 1:26 pm by 06mickey

  So, I’m still learning how it feels to be back home with nothing to do.Its been almost a month now. I thought I would die from all the boredom by now but hey, I’m still here aren’t I ? And being the most boring and un-spontaneous person with countable friends is not helping either. I have [...]

• Attempts

  Posted: November 2, 2009, 12:19 pm by 06mickey

  I took last night with my camera phone during a black out. Thought I’d share it. What do you think?? Posted in randomness, Sometimes

• Out of my mind

  Posted: November 1, 2009, 6:02 pm by 06mickey

  So, I recently quit my job. Its sort of scary. I have no idea what I’m going to do. I’ve been thinking about it and right now I’m totally freaking out!!!! It feels like letting go, thinking that someone something will catch me Or I’ll land on a soft ground. Only for reality to slowly trickle in That there’s no one, [...]

• Until

  Posted: October 29, 2009, 4:17 pm by 06mickey

  It seems like forever,or never I have been here waiting for you I don’t know why but its like some code embedded in me like you are a big part of my destiny And I have no idea why but the future seems impossible without you like you are a definite I have tried countless times and succeeded a few To convince myself…and others that you don’t exist but [...]

• So…

  Posted: October 21, 2009, 2:33 pm by 06mickey

  Let’s pretend I’ve been busy. You know, too busy to even remember I have a blog. Yeah, that bad. Plus I have been sick, quite a little depressed and very very confused for the past few weeks. I have been thinking of quitting my job for a while now. What’s been keeping me is have absolutely [...]

• Please let me

  Posted: October 9, 2009, 11:43 am by 06mickey

  I am trying To just live this life At least survive the day But when everything keeps hitting From every side Just maintaining my foothold Takes every ounce of strength That I don't even have And here I am just trying to believe Maybe I'll just live today And then see how it goes And maybe I'll make it to the next day I'll see when [...]

• At it

  Posted: October 1, 2009, 10:25 am by 06mickey

  The key is to keep believing Even when it seems like nothing is happening, or changing Because its not the end result, as important as it is, Its the process of learning, not giving up, doing everything to survive That really matters, in the end In the end, looking back, We see how we’ve changed, grown, become better So keep on believing, [...]

• Lessons in this life:Part III

  Posted: September 30, 2009, 3:04 pm by 06mickey

  Since I already wrote a letter to my younger self (basically what I would have told myself if I could go back in time) I decided to write one to my future self, this time to remind myself of where I have been or rather where I am NOW. I’m hoping I’ll remember to read [...]

• Strong Enough;All this time

  Posted: September 29, 2009, 12:32 pm by 06mickey

  I have always wanted someone to tell me what to do Always hoped, desperately that you would show me the way I didn’t think I had enough strength, or wit to do this But I just realized That all this time, you never did That was all me All my choices,my decisions And guess what,I have been fine All this time. And here I [...]

• Its about time

  Posted: September 25, 2009, 1:57 pm by 06mickey

  I have been running, specifically to hide. Yes, I have been running to hide. From what you ask?, Well get ready coz I’m about to drop a cliche’ on you. I want to hide from it all, from the world. That’s my explanation. Take it or leave it. And I’m not tired, yet. I still have the strength to [...]

• I’ll get there

  Posted: September 25, 2009, 12:53 pm by 06mickey

  Well, I have been lazy in updating the blog lately. Exhibit A Just waiting for inspiration . I could fill you in on all the fabulous goings on of my wonderful life but I am tired of whining. So as I wait to write the one post that will revolutionize the world forever, just know that I am here, [...]

• back

  Posted: September 17, 2009, 1:57 pm by 06mickey

  I came back Home But you Weren’t there But this IS home Has been But you weren’t here Anymore So I stayed Hoping You’d be back But then got restless Felt out of place Then I realized That it wasn’t Couldn’t be Home anymore Since YOU weren’t here I thought that if I stayed And waited You’d come back And I Would finally Be back home But since you didn’t I have finally decided to come Back Home, to you Posted in alone, [...]

• Looking for…

  Posted: September 15, 2009, 11:05 am by 06mickey

  Everyday,  I  seek  a  new  beginning . Another  way  to  liberation . From  this  confusion . Another  means  to . Be  free  of  these  chains . Posted in spent Tagged: everyday, fight, hollow, hope

• Have you…

  Posted: September 14, 2009, 10:18 am by 06mickey

  …Ever felt trapped? Like you want to move on, or do something, and you couldn’t? Ever feel like the are these roots pulling you back every time you want to just let go and fly… Wonder why nothing ever seems to be working? Ever felt like you were chasing after time, begging for it to wait, just a [...]

• Its just that…

  Posted: September 10, 2009, 11:33 am by 06mickey

  Please forgive me, I wrote this yesterday when my head was…I donno. My thoughts were everywhere.I think I even lost my train of thought at some point. And also because it’s a little tooo personal. Oh wait this is MY blog… When did  it become  wrong for one to expect others to reach out to them? We’ve [...]

• My caffeine level for today.

  Posted: September 8, 2009, 3:29 pm by 06mickey

  I’m bored…again. Remember this post? Well today, I decided to retake the test, without taking anything with caffeine and guess what…. drumroll….. Well, you can guess I was just bored and trying to look busy… Posted in randomness Tagged: boredom

• Lessons in this life:Part II

  Posted: September 3, 2009, 11:37 am by 06mickey

  I got this idea from this discussion on 20sb which was started by this blogger Basically the idea is to talk about what you would tell yourself ten years ago from the future . Well, ten years ago I wasn’t even a teenager! But here’s what I would say; Mimi, You worry too much. Really. and you can be quite [...]

• Lessons in this life.

  Posted: September 2, 2009, 11:45 am by 06mickey

  She and I were never close. How could we be seeing as she treated the person I love the most like a second class human being. She took every chance she could to make us look like we weren’t raised the right way. She would critisize everything she could when she came for her ’short’ visits. Even [...]

• What they never show you.

  Posted: August 27, 2009, 10:57 am by 06mickey

  If you live outside of, or/and have never been to Africa, then I guess you probably heard a lot of things about Africa. Well today’s post is dedicated to showing  a side not commonly seen. A lot of people think Africa is only about disaster, corruption, disease, war,poverty, wildlife…[feel free to add to the list].I don’t [...]

• Wardobe Challenge

  Posted: August 26, 2009, 1:38 pm by 06mickey

  Just out of college, my wardobe is mainly made up of Jeans, denim… did I say jeans? I wanted to go out the other day (to a friend’s wedding actually) and wanted to dress differently for a change seeing as I have been dressing pretty much the same way the last 4+  years and no [...]

• Found

  Posted: August 22, 2009, 8:41 pm by 06mickey

  We all feel misunderstood. And have this need to be understood by at least one person. We may sometimes feel complex, weird,different,never fit in, hence the need for appearances. Show me one person whos says they have never felt misunderstood and I’ll show you a liar. We’ve at one point heard the phrase  “He/She gets me…”. Finding that one [...]

• Random Thoughts:Growing Pains Part II

  Posted: August 22, 2009, 8:26 pm by 06mickey

  I feel alive again I wish I didn’t Coz I can feel again and it hurts I once felt like My soul was gouged out and what remained was like this crust, shell of me *    *   *   *   *   *   *   * Its like I have these options and none of them are my choice to make If I’m going to be like this then let [...]

• No way…

  Posted: August 21, 2009, 2:08 pm by 06mickey

  I didn’t think it would start this soon. I thought the pressure would start at least ten years from now! Clearly I couldn’t have been more mistaken. Lately , it seems everyone around me is either getting married or engaged. O.k. Maybe not EVERY ONE but quite a number of my friends are. A girl that  I knew [...]

• …aand another one of those

  Posted: August 18, 2009, 4:27 pm by 06mickey

  I hate it when I read/hear about topics such as ‘the meaning of life’,'Who am I,really?’, ‘Finding out why I’m here’… Why, you ask? Because somehow I’m usually taken back to one of those dark days and can easily spiral me into one. You know, the days when you’ve tried everything and nothing is working. The days when [...]

• Up to here.

  Posted: August 18, 2009, 3:40 pm by 06mickey

  I am tired Of you Thinking about you YOur fAce Your smilE toUCH I AM sick of having you as the firsT Thing oN my mind when I  wake and the ONLY thing when I Go to bEd I am so siCk of wisHIng you heRe so tired of Pining wishing waiting picturing wondering and every day i tell Myself no MorE and then start aLL over agAin I’m sick Of yoU [...]

• Nice Shoes!

  Posted: August 17, 2009, 12:43 pm by 06mickey

  It was just a simple compliment. But to me it meant a lot. Here I was, trying to convince myself that the time had come for me to kill this passion. It has been long enough and I was fooling myself. Plus I couldn’t see my situation changing in the near future. Of course, there would be the [...]

• The other side

  Posted: August 14, 2009, 4:09 pm by 06mickey

  Everybody has this way they are (lets not say ‘act’) around their family. It’s not the same way they are around their friends. Even the way we treat our individual friends is different. The way we are around one person is not the same as when we are with another… We all have these different sides [...]

• How NOT to get out of a cycle

  Posted: August 13, 2009, 10:31 am by 06mickey

  Complain about your situation constantly. Whine and moan. Its not fair that nothing ever goes the way you want it so what better way to make those around you hate you than to constantly remind them of how crappy your life is. Keep doing the same things, the same way over and over again. You got [...]

• Exhaling

  Posted: August 7, 2009, 12:01 pm by 06mickey

  I have been trying to find my way back,I’m not sure to what. Its like a distant light between the trees of the forest I’m lost in. It keeps appearing and disappearing. So I just keep walking in its direction whenever I see it. I keep getting lost, and stumble into new paths. Some are so [...]

• So what do you think?

  Posted: August 6, 2009, 10:06 am by 06mickey

  Why is it that we have to base our approval of ourselves on that of others. validate ourselves,achievements based on what they think? If  ”they ” think its “good enough” then it is good enough for us. “They” doesn’t have to mean just anyone. It could be family, mentors, our closest friends, whoever else we look [...]

• All smiles

  Posted: August 4, 2009, 11:21 am by 06mickey

  Just smile, Take the order Do as he says Its what he wants You know he always gets what HE WANTS Smile, You know what you want never matters Your dreams are not important They come second or third… or last Or just never You know you have to live the life he never had Maybe one day after you are done Maybe then you can live [...]

• Beyond Desperation

  Posted: August 3, 2009, 11:32 am by 06mickey

  If you are on your way, then you are gonna have to pull me out of a very dark hole a dark twisted hole and revive what I knew before Pull my head out of the clouds back to reality out of the castles that I have built back to truth that is, if you are on your way If you aren’t Then I’m gonna have [...]

• It’s not that bad

  Posted: July 24, 2009, 10:30 am by 06mickey

  I wanted it to matter. Everything. But still I dont have the five ‘galfriends’ (damn that sitcom), and didn’t graduate with a first class,I dont have “the job” I wanted right after graduation or live in a place where privacy is not a luxury And guess what, I’m here, alive and breathing. I dont know why all [...]

• Looking back

  Posted: July 23, 2009, 1:48 pm by 06mickey

  I used to keep a diary in my teens. I still do. Sometimes I take one of my journals and read through.Most of those times,I’m like, what??? Did I write that? Sometimes I tell myself how… how young I was! So naive,inexperienced. Its funny sometimes, reading through the thoughts of 14 year old me. Its funny too how [...]

• It’s here!!

  Posted: July 23, 2009, 11:18 am by 06mickey

  Written by Leah of fiveblondes.com When we first talked to Mimi about her blog, she stated it was about ‘confusion’. Coming from a family of five blondes, I know very well what confusion is all about. (Insert blonde joke here, ha. ha. ha.). Later that day, I was grocery shopping and spied a fatherly-looking man in [...]

• One

  Posted: July 22, 2009, 5:13 pm by 06mickey

  Why is it that our whole lives have to be defined by just one person. Of course we have the family and friends but “The One” takes it hands down. I mean, if I knew the expectations of the person who is thinking of finding me in the future as their “the one”, I ‘d totally [...]

• I’m swapping

  Posted: July 21, 2009, 11:38 am by 06mickey

  I’m involved in the current Blog Swap on 20 something bloggers. So get ready people, sometime this week we’ll have a post from one of the five blondes. Make sure you check ‘em out! I’m still thinking about what I’ll write but I’m sure it’ll be something Mimi so… Wanna give me ideas??? Leave me a comment or hit [...]

• Wake up! Memoirs of a quitter.

  Posted: July 20, 2009, 2:15 pm by 06mickey

  If you have been reading this blog for a while then you’ll know by now I’ve had a few  meltdowns on here. If you haven’t(been reading), I have. So yesterday I was having one of those and wrote this down although I’m fine now and feeling completely different!! There are no more dreams,just things I [...]

• Who started it?

  Posted: July 16, 2009, 11:21 am by 06mickey

  Most of us have that one person(at least) that really bugs them the most. The one that we all trust at one point, give our all to only to end up extremely disappointed. Then we forgive, after all life’s too short,  and too quickly forget only for the cycle to quickly repeat itself. We end up [...]

• hold me pls…

  Posted: July 14, 2009, 3:02 pm by 06mickey

  hold me pls… Posted in randomness

• Random Thoughts:Growing Pains

  Posted: July 13, 2009, 11:23 am by 06mickey

  Have you ever wanted to escape so much? And then you find a way to so much so, you get lost so much that all you now know is unreal Or kept your eyes on the goal So much you gauge everyone around by how much they are a threat So that when you achieve your ‘goal’ Or not All that’s left is [...]

• Nothing

  Posted: July 10, 2009, 10:28 am by 06mickey

  My graduation is coming up in a few days which means I’ll officially be out of school at the end of this month. If logic serves me right I should excited about it. You know, jumping around, making plans, what am I going to wear…blah. I’m not. I dont feel anything.In short, I’m just there. Just waiting for [...]

• days until…

  Posted: July 9, 2009, 12:41 pm by 06mickey

  Posted in Finally, Graduation

• void-ness

  Posted: July 3, 2009, 10:09 am by 06mickey

  Take me back to When I felt When I hoped Take me back to inspiration and motivation Remind me of the lessons I learnt From the heartaches and regrets and consequences and humiliation But dont take me back to the pain I know that is when I could feel Not to the failures I know that is when I learnt Please, not to the regrets, the consequences of [...]

• I forget sometimes

  Posted: July 2, 2009, 5:13 pm by 06mickey

  Sometimes I forget And sometimes it really doesn’t feel like me I want out This is not how people know me Is this really me? Or am I just seeking for attention Is this why it all began in the first place? Sometimes I forget So should I? Should I pull back? Get rid of it all? Forget the right thing. Just tell me coz Sometimes I forget. Will [...]

• In love with “the idea”

  Posted: July 1, 2009, 5:08 pm by 06mickey

  Have you ever met someone , especially after sometime, and then the two of you ‘clicked’? Yeah, you know what I’m talking about! You like(d) being around them, the way they smile,blush,look at you(well, lets sum it all up as mannerisms) And then you start picturing all these things,(girls, you know what I’m talking about) future dates holidays birthdays times (that [...]

• Comfortless

  Posted: July 1, 2009, 2:35 pm by 06mickey

  To meet you at last Spend long,lazy summer days and winter evenings To touch the color of you and run my fingers through your hair To look into your eyes To be held in your arms And inhale the aura that is you To be silent with you To feel your delightful lips And your fingers, slowly down my back Your breath on the back of [...]

• I just CANT

  Posted: June 30, 2009, 12:10 pm by 06mickey

  I have just watched trailer of the film “SoulMate”. Its a movie I’d like to watch. That said, I dont want to be 60, single and satified(Although that should work for now ,lol!). To tell you the truth,I’M SCARED.Just from watching the trailer. I dont know if the film gives advice to single (and currently unattached) people [...]

• Update

  Posted: June 29, 2009, 4:36 pm by 06mickey

  I have updated my About Me page created a new page, Mimi meme. Feel free to check it out! ! I’ve used a meme that everyone loves to hate but hey… Lemme know what you think. Posted in Me Tagged: Me

• Hold it right there!

  Posted: June 29, 2009, 10:54 am by 06mickey

  "A man without self-control is as defenseless as a city with broken-down walls" -(Proverbs 25:28). Dear Self, I know I have beaten you down Called you a lot of things But not today That said,  I want to Put a restraint on every habit that has brought down my character perspective that holds me back indulgence that makes me think that “I’m treating myself” but is instead breaking [...]

• I dont why, but I’m kinda sad

  Posted: June 26, 2009, 10:15 am by 06mickey

  Tagged: MJ

• I dont why, but I’m kinda sad

  Posted: June 26, 2009, 10:15 am by 06mickey

  It’s funny how we treat people when they are alive and then mourn for them when they are gone. Its something about the human race that I’m never going to understand Rest In Peace, MJ. Posted in Death, Life Tagged: Michael Jackson, MJ

• REadY tO liVe nOW

  Posted: June 25, 2009, 1:50 pm by 06mickey

  I dont have everything I’ve always wanted But.. I’m done with High School, Even College, I have moved out of the parents house, Have my own furniture, HAVE lost weight… Have a job, manage my own finances(mostly), And yet I’m still waiting for my life to start… waiting For me to get a “better [...]

• God knows I need it

  Posted: June 24, 2009, 11:12 am by 06mickey

  The last few posts have been really… really. O.k I dont know what to call it but what I’m trying to say is that I’m currently going through a rough patch and I need a break from it all So I looked around the net for some “positive quotes” and “tips on how to live positively” [...]

• On

  Posted: June 24, 2009, 10:00 am by 06mickey

  As in moving on… Anyway, this is a follow up to this post. Seems like moving on hasn’t been that easy. After you let go, then what? I thought having the ‘right attitude’, ‘thinking positive’,blah blah… would cut it. It doesn’t. The issues is moving on after forgiving and all that stuff. I’m at this point where I’m [...]

• LOL!

  Posted: June 22, 2009, 1:57 pm by 06mickey

  I decided not to whine today. Posted in randomness Tagged: lol

• Again??

  Posted: June 18, 2009, 4:47 pm by 06mickey

  I’m here again.Again. I know there’s no so much I can do to keep myself from this.But I know what to do not want to stay here. Its the getting myself out that’s hard. Staying is easier. I know . Yes I dont want to be here.I wish I didn’t have to. Its a never ending cycle I’d like to [...]

• Dreams versus Dreams

  Posted: June 18, 2009, 11:38 am by 06mickey

  You know, dreams. The ones you have every night when you go to sleep. The ones that usually leave you wide awake in the night because you cant go back to sleep coz you dont want a sequel to the one you just had?The ones that steal your sleep and leave you staring at the [...]

• I wonder…

  Posted: June 16, 2009, 12:58 pm by 06mickey

  Sometimes I take risks I shouldn’t. Other times I poke into places(I know) I shouldn’t. Its a thing with me that I cant shake off and only realise when experiencing the repercussions of my actions. There are quite a few times though this habit works in my favor. This is not one of them. I know(not [...]

• Bored STIFF!!

  Posted: June 11, 2009, 12:30 pm by 06mickey

  Today I was bored at work so I decided to take one of those stupid tests that are everywhere on the www and I dint feel like working, so here are the results….. drumroll please… Yeah, I know! Tagged: boredom

• A past life

  Posted: June 10, 2009, 2:39 pm by 06mickey

  I opened my mail today using a different means from the way I usually do it. You know , there are these services that help you open your mail from anywhere?? Anyway, that’s beside the point. What I was driving at was how life has changed. Funny how I saw this by looking at my mail. When the [...]

• Is It?

  Posted: June 10, 2009, 11:39 am by 06mickey

  When we feel that we cant feel anymore and there is that hollowness inside, is it that we have piled on so many layers to protect us, or is it that everything has been gouged out of us so that there is nothing else to feel? Tagged: feelings, hollow, layers [...]

• Want to go back

  Posted: June 10, 2009, 10:32 am by 06mickey

  I long to be there again. Its the only place that I find myself. The only place I know myself. Where all of it is ripped off. Completely. And I find the core that is me. I miss that place. Cant say how many times I have truly been there. But the times that I have, No matter how few, I never did [...]

• Waiting

  Posted: June 6, 2009, 7:49 pm by 06mickey

  I didn’t think this through. They were just questions lurking in my mind. Waiting For the right time, moment,day? For the right person? Right opportunity? What if the chance came and went? How would you know? If you missed it or if it was  ’still coming’? Did you do everything you could? Would there be another chance? Ever? How would you make up for it? How would you [...]

• Another random post

  Posted: June 5, 2009, 11:11 am by 06mickey

  This post isn’t about anything in particular. Let’s just say I’m feeling a lil happier than I usually do coz my(this) blog has been getting a lot more hits than usual. I dont know why I’m obssessed with that. But I am. I’ve been getting more comments on my posts and I’m happy about that.(smile), [...]

• This is it!

  Posted: June 2, 2009, 6:19 pm by 06mickey

  I know I have been hurt. Many times. But I want to stop dwelling on these experiences and start living this life. I want to stop all the blaming and bitching and start afresh. I want to start feeling again. I want my life back . I want to stop hurting. I want to make friends. I want to love. I want to [...]

• No more…

  Posted: June 2, 2009, 3:02 pm by 06mickey

  I guess all the mystery is gone now. There’s nothing left to find out or be intrigued by… I didn’t think it would happen this fast but it has.How do you keep things interesting?

• Monday

  Posted: May 25, 2009, 10:01 am by 06mickey

  I saw a woman being hit by a car today… It was horrifying and eye opening at the same time. She wasnt badly hurt or anything,mostly disoriented and in shock actually. And here  I was trying to find a reason to be happy on a Monday morning.Just got my reason right there. [...]

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